Searching

Some time ago I stumbled --
Fell and lost my way.
I lost all love for life I had ever had.
I am now searching,
Trying to find myself.
I am lost among this unending storm,
Drowning in the flood.
Little by little I feel I am dying --
Dying from within.
Where did my love go --
How did it end?
Many times I have triumphed --
Only to fall back down again.
At times I may get discouraged,
But I will continue to stand with God on my side --
Until my journey has ended,
And the fight is won.

Faded Memories

It seems like a dream I awoke from --
Like some distant memory.
These past few months seem a blur
As reality and dreams combine.
My mind knows not what is real anymore.
Is all I knew to be true a lie?
What if reality were really a dream,
And a dream -- reality?
Who determines what is real?
I want nothing more than to be free --
Free from life's captive weight.
My mind is full of faded memories --
Nothing more than faded memories.
In the night I shed a tear,
Wishing it had only been a dream,
For now I am surrounded only --
By these faded memories.

Lost in His Embrace

Another day has passed,
And the love I once knew seems to fade
Like the setting of the sun.
I lay in the stillness -- in the darkness of the night,
And feel as though it is swallowing me up
Dragging me down to the deep pit of despair.
I feel empty -- lost.
Tears run down my face -- my stomach vomits.
Curled up on my bed I cry out --
I cry out to God.
"Why! Why, Lord, did this have to happen?
Where were you when my love slipped away?"
I lie in wait for a response --
My soul in agony
As if to face my fate.
I hear no voice come down from Heaven --
No light is shining on me.
For a moment all reason left me,
And I wondered if He heard my cry,
Or if He was really there.
Before I closed my eyes to try to sleep
I felt an overwhelming sensation --
Something familiar, and yet, something new.
I could almost feel God's arms around me
As peace came undeniably over me.
Lost in His embrace, I fell to sleep --
I fell asleep in God's embrace.